I always wondered how can someone
willingly decide to torture himself with consistent hesitation only because
he's afraid to give something a try.
Why would someone willingly kill a
daring heartbeat that is urging him to go for what thrills it, just because
they are not sure of what is beyond such decision/action awaiting them. I never
knew until I recently fell in the same exact trap. Thinking of the unknown
really scares some people off. They fool themselves into drawing a twisted
image of the other side, one that pushes them away from trying, in the hope for
putting an end to their hesitation.
But not only they kill the daring
heartbeat, but they also kill that part of themselves that once believed and lived
on that 'what if' heartbeat. They killed an extraordinary 'could be' just
because the 'what if' thought was out of the norm and challenged long old
beliefs. They keep holding too tightly to such beliefs so they can define
themselves and can't seem to dare and try any other synonym or definition.
They would do anything to prove to
themselves that it will always be darker on the 'could be' side. It is sad that
someone can be talented and daring, yet they fail to see it within themselves.
It is even sadder to watch them walk away choosing the safe side shore over
challenging themselves and picking the unknown.
Isn't this how life works and how we
grow. The resistance to 'what is' is what cause our suffering. Every day brings
a choice to pick a 'what if' against the 'what is.' Choose to be miserable and you will find plenty to reasons. Happiness
is allowing myself to be perfectly okay with 'what is,' and working on the
'what if' rather than wishing for and worrying about 'what is not.'
Well frankly, I never knew it until
I recently fell in the same exact trap. I often questioned myself and felt
doomed every time I start telling myself 'What is the point of trying?' Now I
regret choosing the safe side over the 'what if' side. Neglecting my thoughts of the 'what if' fearing to lose the 'what is.' I learnt the lesson the
hard way. Regret and pain are alienating, and contrary to what most people
think, they don't leave. We just get used to living with it.
My advice to everyone reading this is
to stop the hesitation, clear the clutter inside your mind and don't shy out of
experiences. Don’t wait until you've lost something/someone to finally see how
much you could have achieved and how much you took something/someone for
granted. Yes, don't fall in the same trap I did, because unless you are wary,
even the brightest minds can easily deceive its owners into the wrong path out
of fear of the 'what if.'
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