What are friends if they don't ask or check?! I am
going through a phase of having to again question many friendships lately
including how good I am as a friend .. Quite alarming!
I keep checking my account frequently each day. I
think I am connecting with friends. Guess what, I am not. Social networks makes
us think we are connecting with people, but do we actually connect on the
personal level? I don't think so. Besides, it keeps being a source of
distraction than a source of connection.
As a step, I deleted both Facebook and Instagram
apps from my mobile. I neither deleted the messenger nor I deactivated my
accounts since I am being an admin on few groups/pages. But I blocked them on
my computer. I am still reachable on mobile, messenger and whats app. I have
tried it before, and I failed. الله المستعان. Lets
see how long I can survive this round inchaálllah. Lol!
I am gradually losing close friends that I care
about because I fail miserably in keeping in touch. Many ones failed me too
though. We think we are connecting but we are not. Friendships, the same as
everything in life, were much simpler, stronger and sincere before social
networks. :( Life goes on, yes. But someone have to take a step if they want a
change. I need to stop checking my phone to see who still remembers me and
tagged me in a post. I need to actually remember people rather than getting
worried about being simply remembered. What did I do to deserve it? I need to
realize how disconnected I became even from my closest friends, so I actually
put more time and effort to connect back with them. I miss my friends. And it
hurts more knowing how we allow age, distance and social media to kill good
friendships thinking 'it's just how life is,' because it is not!!! :)
